Fighting for Myself

“When everything is lonely, I can be my own best friend.” – Conor Oberst

There is a beautiful thing that tends to happen when I am feeling at my worst. Something rises up inside me, coming to my defense. I can feel it swelling in my chest even now. This part of me is my protector. It is the very best part of me. It holds my tender heart in warm, deep, true understanding and infinite compassion. It reminds me that I always have a choice even when it doesn’t feel like it.

I know I can choose happiness. Right now. It’s always here waiting inside of me. I am so grateful that I always seem to find that outstretched hand from within to guide me back there again and again.

I know things are still going to be hard. I’ll probably go back to feeling anxious and overwhelmed an hour from now. But the bursting sensation of relief from suffering that I am still able to find in these moments is such a gift. I will keep fighting for myself. I will keep moving forward even when it feels hopeless. Because these moments, this bliss that exists within me, it’s worth it. I’m worth it.

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