Beggars can't be choosers
but when it comes to connection
I can't bear to settle for surface level
I want to be seen only by souls that can
understand my unique style of sin

Finding friends can be exhausting
when you feel the need to pretend
to put on a pleasing face for strangers
to push through the small talk
to taste the bittersweet fruit underneath

It used to be so effortless
falling into spaces where I belong
classrooms filled with all kinds of candidates
exceptional people swelling around me like the sea
transformation ignited by togetherness

That electric energy of engagement and laughter
has been slowly phased out of my life
leaving solitude and silence in it's wake
curiosity curtailed by fear of rejection
I shy away from all opportunities for connection

3 thoughts on “Connection

  1. I’m sad reading this. Because it tells so much about my inner self and my approach to connect with friends. Thank you so much for writing this! 🙂
    I couldn’t find friends offline so I started to look online and it was my best worst mistake. Was there an option?….

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      1. True that! It has turned harder, because people are surrounded by so much insecurities and have separated themselves from each other. Even the celebrities with millions of followers and thousands of real connections, feel “lonely”.

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