It's all a distraction these things I don't have fly paper fixations that trap I still have so much enough to overflow my cup I can break the illusion of lack I know all this overthinking only makes me suffer it cannot solve these problems Time to take a deep breath and tell myself what I know to be true I can be happy anyway I have what I need to thrive and succeed if I allow myself to let that look differently I'm already right where I need to be Grateful and kind and gentle and loving nothing can stop me from spreading these blessings that I am able to create
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Jealousy
A poisonous worm eats away at my heart excreting the thick slurry of selfishness that runs through my veins Sudden flare of fierce emotion at the disclosure of others' good fortune leaving me feeling ashamed The wretched sensation of anger that suffocates more appropriate emotions choking off a chance to celebrate A friend's success could be shared by relinquishing comparison and competition fed with heavy spoonfuls of self-doubt The fear that another's joy might threaten my own as if there is only so much happiness to go around and my chances of winning that lottery are now lessened What a sad state of affairs to let the luck of a loved one tear at me instead of fill me up What kind of person am I that my first instinct is to be unkind to someone that is thriving? The best I can muster is to remain silent when I should be smiling and adding my positivity to their blossoming abundance